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Do you think it sounds wrong when I say, "Hey, I'm gonna work hard to get a B- for my Physics!!". How un-motivating. But that's the case really.

I got my Physics test 3 back, and actually did worse than 2nd exam despite working harder than the 2nd test. I avoided calculating my scores, so that I can perhaps still cling to some false hope and give it my all for my finals. But after receiving a sample calculation mail from my lecturer, I calculated my score anyway. And the best grade I can get is about B- or B, provided if I can get an (almost) full mark in my finals. For me, completing any subject below a B+ grade is as if I never taken the course, meaning I've learned or gained nothing from it. So it's really bad.

I need to pull myself together and work my hardest in this last 2 weeks. Forget about every bad exams I had and just score the finals! I need to remember how good it felt when I really owned a paper! LOL @ my self motivation.

So anyway, let's look at sth different. The weather now is really nice. lol. People must think I'm weird if I talk about weather in Malaysia. But weather is essential over here that everyone check weather.com or other weather sites frequently to get themselves prepared for bad (or good) weather. Btw, Americans really love good weather. On a sunny day, you can see Americans lying on grass enjoying the sun or reading a book. A lot of them also come out of their house chatting/playing. Lol, playing sounds childish. But they are playing outside of their house. There are even some of them who sat outside of their 2nd floor's roof chilling out. I should probably snap some pics to show you.

Anyway Spring sem is coming. Just finished registering the classes. Really looking forward to it. Nice weather, and pretty good schedule. Hopefully a relaxing sem la, even though my friend told me my subjects too heavy.

That's all I guess, I need to go studying liao.

Side note: The wind is really strong outside, and according to weather.com there's gonna be severe thunderstorm (with red highlight around the weather column, i.e serious bad weather) right about now. Kinda looking forward for the storm lol. Also, strong wind rocks, even though they exposed my baldness.

Oh and there's a fly in my room. How strange. First fly in Ann Arbor. Hope it has no mate to reproduce and die with no babies. Mwahhaha..

Say Hello

It's spring-winter break and I'm in the house.alone.

My speaker buzzing loudly, "Say Hello". The night is silence.

A gem, discovered in "George Is On" again, second time.

It drew so much from me. It's amazing. My Steppin' Out part II. This is music.

The loneliness that creeps in my kitchen. I savored it.

A moment of reflection. It reminds me of why I'm here.

A tricky time never stops,
A lucky time never stops,
that moment passed me by without bothering to,

"Say hello.."

It was a tough decision. A once in a lifetime chance let go in a split second's decision.

I thought I'll mourn for a day. But solitary could be sweet.

I felt like I'm in Einstein's 4th dimension, part of time itself. Without the constraint of time, it's pure joy.

Oh, say hello to the world. Good morning.

Moments like these are gold. My soul, stay gold.

I miss you. I remembered. The very reason. Thank you. Say hello.

Please stand by me.

I promise I'll be strong.

Say hello =)

Translation:

I decided to stay at house today and not join my friend in a spring/winter break Chicago trip. Trust me, it was a hard decision, made at last minute too. I hope it didn't cause any inconvenience to anyone.

I remembered yesternight that the reason why I'm here, to study. Of course going Chicago with good friends could be a once in a lifetime thing. But there will be other chance. Another trip. I've been looking forward for this holiday weeks ago, precious time for me to catch up on studies. I did badly on all my first 3 tests. I got below the average score in my course for all 3 subjects. I was devastated. Never in my life had I felt as inferior. Of course in Intec, I used to get bad results too, but that's because I didn't put in any effort. I did, work hard this time around. And below average results is a big strike.

I recovered nonetheless. I did not harp on it. Probably one of the best attribute in me is to be able to think positively and recover from sadness in almost a second. I made a promise to score above average in all 3 tests in my 2nd exam, to fix my mistakes. I knew this will be almost impossible if I give up my time for Chicago trip.

I'll never forgive myself, either way. But rationally, my study still weighs more.

It's too soon to say I made the right decision. But tonight was realization. "Say hello", a hidden gem in George Is On elicits so much from me. The kind of late night loneliness feel was all here again. The (almost) exact same feeling that Steppin' Out gives. It was a nice feeling, believe me. Sadness could be savored too. Just feel it when it's here, enjoy it.

I miss a lot of things. They will not hold me back. They will push me forward. These are moments worthwhile to reflect on life. Why I was here. How I got here.

I worked hard to get here, and I'll not let it go to waste.

It's too soon to say I made a good decision. On second thought, I'm certain it's a good decision. Affirmative. I won't trade these moments. It belongs to me. Mine alone. In fact tricky time never stops, so

"say Hello"

Sidenote: Do check out Deep Dish's Say Hello Ok?

Snow.Caution

Verse 1:
Every sharp every flat,
Attention undivided, all eyes are set.
intertwining our heartbeats,
ensnared in the off-beat metronome,
the last note impressed upon us,
unfading.

Chorus:
Your impeccability,
Shattered.
Reflecting images of her far far away,
I thought I saw the real you.
Feeble signal, uneasy noise,
destroying the smooth sinusoidal wave.
I turned the light off,
Oh, it's true, it's true.
Snow.Caution

Verse 2:
You were inscrutable,
Feelings left unsorted,
it was beautiful,
Your emission, her absorption,
A blackbody curve that peaked at the same height.
I think what they say is true. Aaah~~

Your impeccability,
Shattered.
Reflecting images of her far far away,
I thought I saw the real you.
Feeble signal, uneasy noise,
destroying the smooth sinusoidal wave.
I turned the light off,
Oh, it's true, it's true.
Snow.Caution

Bridge:
Tears, crimson veins,
Forget about perfection,
Taken down the red zone,
Oh the overwhelming aftermath.

Aaah~~

Your impeccability,
shattered.
Reflecting images of her far far away.
I thought I saw the real you.
Feeble signal, uneasy noise,
and a call that came too late.
Flurries that blurred my vision,
and the weak anbaric light,
I know it's true,
Snow.Caution.

Mmm~~~

Inspired by:

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Lust.Caution (Title)

Metronome

HEART STATION

His Dark Materials

Astronomy

My Days Are Numbered

Yeah, in Malaysia I mean.

I honestly didn't realize this until I checked my calendar just now. I was practically in hysteria when I knew my flight date is on next week. There are sooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOooooo many things I haven't done yet. I haven't even buy my luggage and some simple winter necessities. And I can't find my financial affidavit atm too. Also, I still haven't got my housing yet.

This whole prepare for flight thing is really overwhelming and headachenizing.

To worsen the situation, my dad is bugging me to no end to do this and that. He could tell me the same thing almost every hour. He just won't drop it even after I assure him that I'll get to do those things.

I really thought I could spend my last days in peace.



I need to pull myself together and make sure everything goes well before I fly. I don't want to be The One who delay others flight time. Choi~~ *touch wood*

An Outing

Yay outing!

Yesterday afternoon my cousin woke me up when I tidur lena and asked me to go with her for a haircut. Actually I wanted to get my haircut next week, but then I thought what the heck, got people teman, so just go la.

I reached there (times square) at 2. But she was late (as expected). Actually I was glad that she's late cos I wanna drop by borders to continue reading a book. You know how my friends are always late for an outing, I kinda picked up a habit while waiting for them. While waiting, I'll pick up a book from Borders to read. Of course this isn't necessary if my friends are late for like 5 or 15 minutes. But my friends.... they'll always be late for at least half an hour ZOMG. So this habit proved to be quite useful after all haha...

Last Friday when I was waiting for my friend, I went looking for Percy Jackson series in Borders and started reading Lightning Thief. When my friend finally reached an hour later (!!!), I have to stop at the juicy part of the story! The story then kinda stuck in my head for the next few days. That's why I was glad my cousin came late! I continued reading the book until after an hour, I realized I was still reading the book. What happened to my cousin?? Apparently her karaoke in Lowyat was extended an hour, and she was on her way to time square when I called her. -_-;;;; I wonder if I could finish the book though, before I go US. You know my mom actually forbids me to buy any more books. She said books are cheaper in US. Is that true?


And so when I met my friend we went for our haircut at Kimarie. When we reached there, the receptionist told us we have to wait for an hour! What..? So we walked around checking out christmas decor, winter clothings and other stores. Also there's this shop I came by that has a salesman who was very friendly, in fact too friendly to the point that it had became very pestering. He and another salesgirl practically swarmed me when I went in. When I spotted a cardigan and wanted to try it out, that guy then started giving me a 15 minutes lecture about how trendy cardigans are. >_<;; The cardigan was actually OK but the thing is they sold it for 70 bucks! I could probably get a similar if not better cardigan in a branded shop for a cheaper price. When we left the shop my cousin and I were both exchanging looks o_o. Later, we went back to Kimarie after we received a call from them. After consulting our hairstylists, my cousin decided to get her hair cut short while I just got my hair trimmed a lil. I really enjoyed the hair washing part. The assistant washing my hair squeezed the shampoo like it's tap water. She practically spent half a bottle on my hair! The shampoo is probably diluted but still. Then she also spent 10 minutes scratching and massaging my scalp. Ahh.. so nice.. haha.. I think after trying several saloons, Kimarie is still easily the best. I remembered the last time I went to Michael and Guys for highlight. The people there were so 敷衍 (cincai) when washing my hair. Also that bitch hairstylist cut my hair without even asking me first.

So anyway, after hair cut we went for dinner. I suggested to go Jalan Alor and try their assam laksa! Actually I wanted to try it since last year when my friend syorkan to me. Summore this friend is from Penang, so he knows! haha.. So we walked along the street asking each stall who sells Assam Laksa lol. Then there's this lady who told us that someone down the street is selling it and she'll order it for me, then she asked us to sit down. Wa so terer do bussiness la. Then she cheated us eat mushrooms summore. She was like sambil intro-ing us the mushroom sambil writing it down on the order sheet.



Then there's also this strange thing happened when we were eating. Every 5 minutes, there'll be a child walking pass selling tissue to us. Some lil girls even feign cuteness in their voice when selling tissues, and then switch language when selling to foreigners. So pro la that lil gal. I think these kids are from an organization or sth. Don't know la.. kinda pity them.

Then when day stretched to night (so poetic), the people came selling things or asking money got stranger and stranger. Children were replaced by monks, monks replaced by old ladies... I wonder what's next if we stayed longer. Erm..

The monk asking for money.. Notice how the holy light shining on him? Hahahahaha no, he's still a fraud.

Besides where we eat.


Jalan Alor

After eating, I walked to lot 10 and looked for Clara in Tower Records! Haha.. I bought Jolin's Agent J Champion CD there. I got 20% discount for the CD and a free Jolin calendar courtesy of Clara. XDDD

Agent J Commemorate Version

Then from Lot 10 my cousin and I walked back to time square. We thought of having a good foot massage after a long day. We went to an earlier spotted reflexology (sp?) store but it was already closed. So we went to another.

We went to My Buddy Health House

We were greeted by a few of their staffs. When I noticed their rich Chinese accent I was already half skeptical. Sorry for stereotyping la can't help it. But then cos I was lazy to search for another reflexology store (if any) so I just went into this one. The guy who massaged me started rubbing left and right of my foot. Ok fine. But then he continued that motion for like almost 5 minutes. I was like for Pete's sake when are you going to start massaging? Then when he finally started massaging he made pretty damn sure that it inflicts severe pain on me. Cos he was surveying my expression every single time he pressed the pain spots. Then he'd ask "Pain?". I replied "Ok la.." and then put on the if-you're-not-gonna-massage-me-more-kuatly-im-gonna-doze-off look. Also, I noticed my cousin's massager and mine used different formula/style in massaging. That just proved that they don't really have a formula in their massage! And then when asked how she felt by the massager, my cousin was like saying "舒服..舒服..". I was thinking "really?". Then when we went out of the store, the first thing my cousin told me was that the foot massage sucks, and I was like LMAO LMAO LMAO. Really la, that shop turned out to be a bogus after all. For goodness sake, they even displayed "feet massage" on their banner. Isn't it suppose to be foot massage? Also, they only really massaged me for 25 mins. For me it's either exact time or over time, less time is not tolerable.

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Sidenote: Anyway, did you notice the change of name for my blog? Haha.. Details soon.

Tell Me If This Isn't The Coolest Ad Ever!

Anyone recognize the dance routines?

Back from BTN

Rumours were spreading among us who were going to the BTN camp that the camp is going to be torturous. Well, I refused to believe that. I mean how bad can it be? Even though I'll probably pay 100 bucks or more to skip the camp and stay at home, that's because I'm the lazy type who refuse to immerse myself in outdoor activities. But then again, if it's for karaoke, bowling, yumcha, watching movie, shopping, then that's different case la XD. Camping? Thanks but no thanks.

Nonetheless, I was still able to remain positive about the camp. I was inspired by a line Mila said in ANTM. She said, "I think if you just concentrate on the positive, the negative things would just go away". I know how naive it sounds, but it works for her. And in this case, I think it works for me too, as it was exactly through holding this thought that I was able to complete this camp on a bright note.

Day 1 - Nothing much happened. We enrolled in the evening at the camp and got ourself a room. But when we reached our room, our room was already fully occupied. But thank goodness, the few of us who did not have a room were assigned to another room. It was all cool cos the few of us kinda owned the entire room as there wasn't anyone else in that room.

Day 2 - Ceramah all day. OMG. This was probably the worst part. Ceramah from day til nite.

The 1st speaker voice was so annoying. His voice interchanged between high and low constantly and abruptly. His voice was extremely loud one second and then super deep and low on the next. It's almost as if he's singing one of Mariah Carey songs that goes high and low all the time. If I were his Public Speaking lecturer, I'll most definitely fail him! I mean what's the point of going up so loud, we're not deaf, and there's a loudspeaker there for god's sake. Also cos of his fluctuating voice, we can't sleep in his ceramah >_<.

The 2nd and 3rd speaker were also boring but I can't really remember in detail how they speak la. Primacy effect eh maybe? kakaka..

Then, there's the last speaker. His speech very much exceeded the time limit and he cracked damn lots of dry jokes. Maybe I'm the only one who can't get his joke, my mind was so blank at that point that I absorbed 0% of the things he said. The rest of the audience seemed to enjoy his jokes though. Hmm.. o_o

The ceramah day was just a disaster la. I have to sit still on my chair for so many hours. I got really really restless during the ceramah. So restless, so impatient that I wished someone could just write my name on the Death Note OMG!

Day 3 - The day in which LDK begun. LDK means Latihan dalam kumpulan btw. I was given the 1st surprise when I entered my room in LDK. Why??? Cos my facilitator was actually the 1st speaker from the ceramah. OMG yes, the Mariah Carey guy. But I was OK la. Maybe because I didn't expect much from LDK, I didn't really mind.

During the LDK sessions, I kept myself as low profile as possible. Trying to be that lil bug in the corner observing everyone, I talked only when asked, and answered questions as succinctly as I can manage. But that changed during the night session when we're suppose to have a debate+discussion activity. I saw that faci scribbling non-stop on his paper when we're talking, I knew I can't keep quiet anymore. So I speak up a little la (voluntarily).

Day 4 - LDK ended. Actually LDK was kinda fun despite me dozing off several times during the sessions. Blame that on the lack of time to sleep. 5 hours a day, what you expect.

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Also I soon learned that my LDK group was the best among my friends. I like my group mates, all of them. I don't talk much to them but that's because I'm reserved. I enjoyed my group mates companion and listening to their opinions. Also, the activities in our group were rather fun. Besides, I also learned quite a lot bout politics and our government. I still dislike politics though. They give me headache.

Also, my faci is pretty open minded too, he accepts diverse views from us. He's really kind to us too. Besides, when LDK ended, he gave us some feedbacks about us too. I was kinda surprised at what he said about me. It was really true. Why I said I was surprised is because what he said bout me was something bout me inside, not sth obvious people will notice. It might even take my close friends a long time to notice, but it only took him 2 days. Hmm....!!!!!!

LDK aside, I also like my room mates. They were really fun! Also we had quite a heavy discussion among us on the 2nd last day, which was quite an eye opener for me too.

Food also, some are good some are OK, some are bad. The 'tea time' food are often very oily. Also, I like the whole wash your own plates policy too.

The physical test. Haih suck at it la. Only got 60/80. It says there I'm physically 40++ years old O_O. Oh such a blatant lie. I passed the test anyway, so whatever la.

Kawad kaki sucks also.

Then about exams. It was really difficult. I was like WTF when I got the questions.

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Well, overall the camp is pretty enjoyable and meaningful too. I think if I started the camp thinking negatively, I probably would have ended up feeling miserable. Well, luckily I didn't.

Inversed Life

Yes Kremlin Inverse. Intelligent type

I think I'm living like a rat now. Maybe worse. I'm sleeping at 5 am and wake up at 2pm everyday.

I thought I could get a normal life after my exams mana tau lagi worse. Day become night, night become day.




So in an attempt to inverse the current life back to normal. I'm not going to sleep today. And hopefully I'll be tired enough tomorrow to sleep early.

Let's see if it works.

Call. me. shallow.

..but I <3 money$$!! Especially in times like this when I gatal wanna spend but not much money left!

Yes, only last week I've withdrawn $500 and spent habis in less than half a day. Oh no.

Last week, my friend went to teman me to hunt for some winter clothings. We walked from timesquare to Pavillion back to Lot 10 then again Pavillion and finally timesquare.

We attacked the department stores first. I thought that department stores would be a good place to start cos last year around this time I remembered finding some really nice winter clothings in Debenhams. But damn.. Debenhams bankrupt already!! So we looked in Metrojaya and Parkson instead. To my dissapointment, only a really reallllyyy small corner in these department stores sell winter clothings. >_<

So in the end, I bought 3 pieces of clothings (a long sleeve shirt, a jacket and a T-shirt). All non winter wears o_o. The jacket is suppose to withstand cold, but really la, it's only Genting standard kind of cold. I might need to wear like 10 layers inside if I wanna wear that in US. But wth, I still bought it, I thought it has a reasonable price for jacket of that kind, and I thought it's quite nice. And moreover, my another really nice friend came to Pavillion just to help me buy that shirt using his sister's voucher. That would give my jacket and another T-shirt a 20% discount. How could I resist the temptation! So I thought maybe I'll use that as my Fall wear or sth.

Since I bought that jacket, my parents have been really skeptical with my choices of winter clothings. I told them I know that isn't a suitable winter clothing, but still they insist to assist me in choosing my winter wears. O_o.. Not gonna let that happen though. kakakakaka~

Anyway, I also bought a birthday present for my friend in Pavillion that day. The present is really cute, it's a shame I didn't take any pic of it. It's a cubic soft cushion clock, adorned with criss-crossed pink lines. Wait, you don't still think giving a clock as a present is a taboo right? I did consider for a while whether buying a clock would be suitable, but I thought that clock really would make a good gift, so wth we bought it.

Then my friend and I went to Tower Records in lot 10 to look for our birthday girl, Clara. I'm glad she really likes the present. Also, we decided to inspect whether the clock is really functionable. We unzip the clock and took out its content. And yes, we found battery holder inside it! How miraculous! A spongy cute fully functionable clock!

Also, my friend and I decided to go to JCO doughnuts for tea break. We also would like to see what's so gung-ho bout their doughnuts that people all over the town are talking bout it. Well, I did try before the doughnuts on Speech Night. I must say it's really just OK. I don't like how they melt the sugar on the doughnut. I'd prefer the normal makcik sold doughnuts with rough sugar on it. The sensation of chewing the crispy doughnut is different. But then again, I think the doughnuts Intec ordered are the cheapest ones. So I decided to give it a try again.

But.. when we reached there, to my surprise, I realized my sis' friend really wasn't exaggerating at all. People actually do make long queues just to buy their doughnuts. Oh snap, I dismissed my thought to tea break there almost instantly.



So we went to the normal drink sections instead. The drink sections look sophisticated. In fact, the whole food court (is this food court?) is quite sophisticated. I only don't like that the sections in the center of the food court are quite messily arranged.

I love how they arranged the drinks on top of the rack!

Also, after the tea break my friend received a phone call telling her that she was selected as one of the finalists in the Mines photography contest. ZOMG.. Considering the fact that she only took photography for a sem, and she was already able to make it to the finals in this nation wide held competition. Wow.. Really proud of her! I'll ask her to post her selected pic on The Unheard soon and show you k?

Anyway, I'm straying really far now. I was saying I love money right lol? Yes, who doesn't?

Whoever says money can't buy happiness?
And whoever says money is the source of all evil?

Oh these jealous people!!

Lol seriously, I need to budget and spend my money carefully now. Besides the $500, I also recently lend my friend $300. Also, I need to fork out another $600 soon, not to mention I haven't buy a proper winter clothing yet.

Sidenote: I noticed I used "also" a lot recently. I must have been influenced by Deric's writing. XD

Stolen from Sharon.

You Are 25% Left Brained, 75% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

OMG.. Right Brained.. Pick wrong major already la...