The Turning Point of My Life

On Wednesday, I've received a SMS that might change my life forever. It was from MCA, the sms was written by MCA President's secretary. It says that I was put under a special help list for my jpa appeal, and that my jpa scholarship application was successful. I was in disbelief while reading the message. Before I finished reading it, I was already smiling and cracked the news to my parents. They too were in disbelief and asked me to show them the message. I couldn't suppress my feeling as I was trying not to smile, but I just got really excited. I didn't think I'd be so happy when I get the scholarship.

At the same time, I don't want to be too hopeful as it was only a SMS and nothing "official" yet. So I hesitated to tell my friends about the news yet and only told a few of them.

My dad called jpa for confirmation the next day and asked for more details from them. My dad sms-ed me when I was in school and said that I'm going to MARA International Shah Alam on Monday. It was really a short notice, I was having mixed feelings at that moment. Excited, but at the same time I was feeling sad as Im going to have to start a new life, leaving home and school.

I was thinking at that time, how to tell my classmates about it. When I told them, they thought I was kidding until I put on a serious look. I really like some of my classmates. Some of my classmates are really nice and friendly, and some are really hardworking and smart. I would ask them questions that I don't understand or asked them to help me solve some problems, they would have gladly helped me. I really appreciate it. I wish I had knew them better!

I was just feeling really motivated and determined on Tuesday to stay at form 6 as mentioned on my last post. I even bought all the reference books for all subjects on Wednesday getting ready to turn into a bookworm. I also had some study plans planned out and planned to go tuition with my classmates in July.

I remember I was feeling very lost, unsure, insecure and was at a very low point in my life 2 weeks ago, where I hated to go to school, and felt like giving up study. But then, I got motivated and had the drive to study when I went back to school. When I had a day off on Tuesday, I rearranged my mind set and really felt recharged to study form 6.

I could sort of relate how I am feeling now with Nicholas' post, where I am afraid to lose something important in life and the desire to sustain the joyful or memorable moments longer.

I hope I will be able to face the challenges ahead and I'll have a smooth path ahead. I hope this decision would be a right decision even though some of my friends advised me to stay at form 6. But, I am quite firm with my decision.

By getting this scholarship, I started to believe that there are still hopes and there'll always be hopes. I thought I was clinging on false hopes all along during SPM, I was wrong. God has Her own ways of planning things, and always full of surprises and miracles. God must had put me in form 6 for the past month for a reason (reasons). It's probably to let me learn and grow up from it.

Feeling BLUE?

Darling, darling ah... Questions make me BLUE~~

Movie Marathon

Went on a movie marathon this Wednesday! It was fun! Watched 3 movies in a row with my sis and cousins. 4 movies next time!! Haha

These are the 3 movies:
1. The Omen
- Good for a few jumps in the seat! I actually screamed when that stupid nanny jumped on that guy :@..

2. Over The Hedge
- Cute movie, really funny. Love Hammy! So cute..

3. Da Vinci Code
- Good! They followed a lot of details from the book. A lot of the scenes were pretty much like the way I imagined it. I didn't manage to finish the book though. I read the book until 4am the day before, trying to finish it, but only managed to finish 80% of it.

Remember the last time I said I found a good jeans in Debenhams? Well, luckily I waited, cos that jeans got discount as I've expected! It's only 10% though. I was going to wait for 50% but then there's only 1 pair of that jeans left, so... I bought it. Hahahaha.. The rest of the men department has sales too.

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Just checked jpa's site today to see the result of my appeal for the scholarship. As expected, failed. Actually part of me was glad I did not get the scholarship, because:
1. Im not ready to go oversea.
2. I just started settling down in VI.
3. I think form 6 might be fun, in a way.. But I also hate the fact that I'll have to work 10 times harder in form 6.
4. My mom would buy me a piano if Im not going oversea. :)

But of course, it would be cool if I got the scholarship too. Going oversea really sounds cool to me. Plus, the course I applied is a course that Im interested in.

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Holidays' over... I just spent my whole holiday playing computer game- Heroes IV: Might and Magic, listening songs, watching dramas, movies.. Practically wasting time. But I don't mind, at least Im enjoying myself. Something that I need before getting tortured when school reopen.

That just reminded me that I have not touch my homework one bit yet.. Oh well, I still have the orientation week to finish it ;). Im gonna enjoy my holiday to the last bit!

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Im getting a new phone!!! Wahhahahaha.. My old one's spoilt!

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Can't wait for Hikki's new album which is coming out this week. I heard the preview, they are great!!!!!!!

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Some Jolin's videos:



Cute MV!! I think it's one of the best song from the album.



Nice MV. That mean guy!! :@ Anyway, love this song alot!!!!!! Especially the music after the 1st chorus and the 2nd verse.



Sexy! I've read some comments saying that Jolin's too sluttish in this MV. It's Ok for me though. It's the exact way she should potray in the MV. I can't wait to see her performing live with this song, wanna see her dance in this song. Too little dance steps shown in the MV. Hopefully 玩美 will have more dancing in the MV.
Sidenote: Edison really spoiled the scene.. The moment he walked out.. Eww..



Jolin performing in MTV. The performance really kick ass! But the camera is just too shaky and always shoot at the wrong angle.. On contrary to the MV of this song, the ribboning part was actually better than the "ball" part. Watching her ribbon-ing live is so cool. Im so proud of her!!!!!



Perfect ribboning! We like her because she's hardworking!!