It's spring-winter break and I'm in the house.alone.
My speaker buzzing loudly, "Say Hello". The night is silence.
A gem, discovered in "George Is On" again, second time.
It drew so much from me. It's amazing. My Steppin' Out part II. This is music.
The loneliness that creeps in my kitchen. I savored it.
A moment of reflection. It reminds me of why I'm here.
A tricky time never stops,
A lucky time never stops,
that moment passed me by without bothering to,
"Say hello.."
It was a tough decision. A once in a lifetime chance let go in a split second's decision.
I thought I'll mourn for a day. But solitary could be sweet.
I felt like I'm in Einstein's 4th dimension, part of time itself. Without the constraint of time, it's pure joy.
Oh, say hello to the world. Good morning.
Moments like these are gold. My soul, stay gold.
I miss you. I remembered. The very reason. Thank you. Say hello.
Please stand by me.
I promise I'll be strong.
Say hello =)
Translation:
I decided to stay at house today and not join my friend in a spring/winter break Chicago trip. Trust me, it was a hard decision, made at last minute too. I hope it didn't cause any inconvenience to anyone.
I remembered yesternight that the reason why I'm here, to study. Of course going Chicago with good friends could be a once in a lifetime thing. But there will be other chance. Another trip. I've been looking forward for this holiday weeks ago, precious time for me to catch up on studies. I did badly on all my first 3 tests. I got below the average score in my course for all 3 subjects. I was devastated. Never in my life had I felt as inferior. Of course in Intec, I used to get bad results too, but that's because I didn't put in any effort. I did, work hard this time around. And below average results is a big strike.
I recovered nonetheless. I did not harp on it. Probably one of the best attribute in me is to be able to think positively and recover from sadness in almost a second. I made a promise to score above average in all 3 tests in my 2nd exam, to fix my mistakes. I knew this will be almost impossible if I give up my time for Chicago trip.
I'll never forgive myself, either way. But rationally, my study still weighs more.
It's too soon to say I made the right decision. But tonight was realization. "Say hello", a hidden gem in George Is On elicits so much from me. The kind of late night loneliness feel was all here again. The (almost) exact same feeling that Steppin' Out gives. It was a nice feeling, believe me. Sadness could be savored too. Just feel it when it's here, enjoy it.
I miss a lot of things. They will not hold me back. They will push me forward. These are moments worthwhile to reflect on life. Why I was here. How I got here.
I worked hard to get here, and I'll not let it go to waste.
"say Hello"
Sidenote: Do check out Deep Dish's Say Hello Ok?
